Hey friends! Today’s post is brought to you by the wonderful and talented Erin Nausin of Primavera Studio. We hope you’re as encouraged by her story as we are!
Truth be told, I come from a family of planners. Not only did I know what we’d have for dinner any given night of the week, but I also picked out the college I’d attend long before the applications were due.
And it totally worked. I was a good student with good friends and a good future ahead of me. Having a plan meant I had my junk together, and that was important. Way too important.
That sense of control eventually spanned across every facet of my life: calculated jobs, legalistic religion, and a constant need to know what was next. Let’s not even talk about how I felt when friends cancelled dinner plans last minute. It didn’t feel like it at the time, but really, I was super trapped; Trapped in a false ability to control my own boundary lines and constantly be doing the exact right thing at the exact right time.
As you can imagine, that kind of glue only holds a house up for so long. And as God would have it, I married a non-planner. Thoughtful, yes. Smart, yes. But totally not a planner. Our first year of marriage, we lived in a darling, midwest small town, uprooted from our home in the city for my husband’s one year internship as a pastor.
I was newly married, recently back from living overseas, and had just quit my first full-time corporate job. I always say that everything had changed besides my hair color. And I distinctly remember having somewhat of a mid-twenties crisis one night while we were out for dinner (that’s a thing, right?). My own constructed boundary lines blew up and I questioned every imaginable angle of life: what was I good at? What should I be doing for work? What was my purpose? I still wanted to be doing the exact right thing at the exact right time and God graciously yanked that option from my hands.
How often do we get caught up in trying to do the perfect thing when really, the Lord is calling us to journey with him instead? He promises good things, and not all of those things come in the confines of our own five year plans.
My husband told me something that night that I always keep as a back pocket mantra for whenever I need reminding. He said I didn’t have to have it all figured out in one day. I didn’t have to be doing the ultimate, most perfect thing I’ll ever do in my life, today. It’s important to have fun, try new things, and enjoy the path God has for us. Whew. I needed those words.
That year, the Lord moved me in directions that I thought I’d never go. I saw the chance to just enjoy what was in front of me instead of doing the perfect thing and it was so, so freeing. I taught youth classes at the YMCA, worked as a personal assistant, and spent my Fridays working at the bakery.
Through those channels and through the freedom God brought that year, I started dabbling in graphic design work. At first just for fun, designing blog templates for friends. And then, at the request of some small businesses in town. Things started to snowball and I discovered that design was something that really got me excited. It’s possible I did more internet searching, more tutorial watching and more trial and error that year than I ever have in my life. And I really loved it. Thinking back to that time, I wonder what would have happened if I’d never let go of my control – if I had never stepped into that freedom.
Three years later, I still get to run Primavera Studio from home, designing brands, e-books and websites for women who are running hard after their own gifts and passions. Honestly, it’s something I couldn’t ever have dreamed up for myself. And for this season of life, I can’t think of anything I’d like to do more.
One thing I really love to drive home for my clients (and anyone reading on Instagram) is that everyone, every single one of us, is creative. We are, simple because we are made in the image of the Creator. And he’s made us with a desire to grasp and explore certain parts of life in our own unique ways. When we use our gifts, when we engage in that exploration, and when we seek out what he’s made in us, that’s creativity.
When I get to talk with other women and uncover that creativity though their projects, their blogs, their businesses, their passions…that’s where it’s at for me. It’s so much bigger than a smart logo and a pretty color palette. For me, design is a chance to journey with someone and put flesh on their God-given influence.
At the heart of it all is an outpouring of my own creative gifts in celebration of other’s creativity. It’s a full reflection of our Creator God and an acknowledgement of how he’s made us in his image. When everyone’s passions and giftings are being named and used, we get a little taste of Eden; It’s a taste of what it must have been like in that garden where things were as they should be. It’s the embodiment of Heaven coming to Earth — light spreading light, God in us, moving, shaking, using, and wringing out for his glory.
Moral of the story? He’s doing a mighty thing in each of us. We may not see it, or be able to name it. But wherever we’re at, five year plan or not, there are seeds he’s growing in us for the story that stretches beyond ourselves. When we’re able to keep our hands open and our hearts free from that need to control, those seeds begin to grow and we discover the fruit he’s planting in us. It includes all those perfect things, and all those unplanned, not-so-perfect things in between. But it’s good, and it’s free, and it’s his. Pressure’s off, friends. Let’s just journey with the one who made us.
About the author:
“I am a wife to a pastor, a mom, a blogger, designer, and creative at heart. I’ve held many jobs, from overseas missionary to corporate to the oh-so-glamorous self-employment. Through all my career changes, my life’s work is the same: bring the most glory to my Maker by using the gifts and passions given to me to spread a message of hope, love, and encouragement to others.”
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