Prone to Worship

worship

I desire to be a woman that is prone to worship rather than to wander. The Lord, rich in mercy and grace, lavishes immoveable and unchanging love upon me… Yet, even with His goodness and my individual daily pursuit of worship, the uncanny insight into my heart condition is evidence that our desires often go unmet. Continue reading

I am a twenty-year-old who is living in His overflow of mercy and grace. I am enthralled by people and adventures. I have a soft spot for breakfast cafes, handwritten letters, vinyl and macaroons. Whimsy and wonder are two themes interwoven throughout my daily life and I approach each new day with a sense of giddiness, fully aware that the Lord is going to show up in big and evident ways. Spontaneously jumping in a car for a road trip, purchasing concert tickets one night in advance or waking up at the break of dawn to go hiking before class are things I am quite notorious for. My dream job? To be a story-teller. To share stories of redemption and to advance the Gospel and further His Kingdom through beautiful arrays of anointed words.
Liked this post? Share it!

Feeling Completely Alive in the Stillness of God

My soul fights stillness, especially when my planner is chocked full of to-dos and obligations. Taking a glance at my planner, you would notice that just about every hour during the day is filled, between classes, coffee dates, work, writing, workouts, time spent with the Lord and everything in between, it is all penciled and crammed into the small pages.

My body has been wired to run in overdrive and I cringe at the thought of wasting a single second during the day. Sometimes I become so busy and amidst the busyness of life; the deadlines, lofty to-do lists, and calendars sketched in with meetings and coffee dates, I forget to give the Lord my divine attention.  I forget to listen closely to the gentle and quiet things He is whispering into my ear. Continue reading

I am a twenty-year-old who is living in His overflow of mercy and grace. I am enthralled by people and adventures. I have a soft spot for breakfast cafes, handwritten letters, vinyl and macaroons. Whimsy and wonder are two themes interwoven throughout my daily life and I approach each new day with a sense of giddiness, fully aware that the Lord is going to show up in big and evident ways. Spontaneously jumping in a car for a road trip, purchasing concert tickets one night in advance or waking up at the break of dawn to go hiking before class are things I am quite notorious for. My dream job? To be a story-teller. To share stories of redemption and to advance the Gospel and further His Kingdom through beautiful arrays of anointed words.
Liked this post? Share it!

Learning How to Use Your Mess as a Message

Mess into a Message

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore, I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong. 2 Corinthians 12:8-10

Delighting in our hardships and difficulties.

Boasting about our weaknesses.

Why must we do such difficult things?

Being immersed in a society and culture that is constantly inflicting the message that imperfection equals inadequacy, the idea of self-awareness and vulnerability are two acts that have always evoked a small amount of fear from within.

There is a sense of security that comes with keeping the door to my authentic-self locked up. Placing the intricate key that unlocks the doorway into our darkest secrets, painful past, struggles and sin takes a certain amount of courage and boldness. Especially when the world tells us to do otherwise.

Vulnerability takes courage because it sets us up for the possibility of rejection and judgment. However, we must set aside ourselves and remember that our life is about knowing Him and making Him known, even if it means risking our reputation.

As Lent is in full swing and we are approaching the celebration of the Risen One, we are reminded of the importance of unlocking that door to our broken past and revealing the lines of sorrow on our weary faces. It is a time that we acknowledge our shortcomings and allow our weaknesses to come to the surface. This should be a time where we stop hiding behind an unstable door and start confessing to our Heavenly Father and to those around us.

I once shamed myself for my past struggles and mistakes. Entering into my freshman year of college, I was what some people call a “baby” Christian. It hadn’t quite been an entire year since I had made the decision to abandon my life and place it into the gentle hands of Christ.

While I was on the right path, keeping my eyes fixated on the cross, I was also holding onto the baggage full of my broken pieces that I had acquired throughout high school.

It’s quite ironic, but as I type these very words, the song called Stained Glass by Jon Guerra shuffled on my playlist and is now filling the air with sweet melodies. This song clearly depicts the lifestyle I was living as a new believer. I was following Jesus but I was still hiding behind the mistakes that I had made. (Below are some of the lyrics; I encourage you to go check out the entire song.)

“All my days

I’ve been wearing the mistakes I’ve made

Like a coat I could’ve thrown away

I should’ve brought it to You.”

While I grew up in a Christian home, it took me quite some time to discover how to have a personal relationship with Jesus. Prior to college, I sought joy in earthly matter rather than from the Lord, I found hope in my own lofty dreams and goals rather than in His promises and I was wallowing in a sinful and unhealthy relationship with a boy.

After realizing the magnitude of my brokenness and allowing the Lord to mend my broken pieces, it took awhile before I could fully fathom the power of God’s grace. The faster I chased after the Lord’s heart and the more time I spent sinking in His presence, the better I understood the magnitude of God’s love.

He lavishes it upon the unworthy, the crippled, and the ragamuffins. His grace is sufficient for all.

Yes, I am broken. Yes, I continue to fall short of God every day. However, I am aware of my vast need for Him and fully understand that there is nothing that can set me apart from Him. My only response to the Lord’s goodness is to live each day completely surrendered to Him, allowing Him to shape and use me in whatever ways that I can glorify Him in every corner of life.

Understanding God’s grace has allowed me see the beauty in my messy redemption story. I can now celebrate joyfully knowing that he has turned my mess into a message, a message that I can boldly and confidently share with others without feeling the need to keep the door to my past struggles, sin and sorrow locked up.

Friends, the Lord blesses us in our times of vulnerability. He delights in our efforts of letting our true selves be seen and when we boast in our weaknesses and struggles.

As I am fully immersed into my second year of college, I have witnessed these blessings firsthand. I am constantly praying that the Lord opens doors and sparks conversations that allow me to share my redemption story with others. I pray the same for you.

Here are just a few things that I have learned from the sweetness of vulnerability:

-The Lord has wired us to crave relationships with others. In order to build relationships that go beyond the surface, we must be vulnerable. When we are quick to admitting our weaknesses and sharing about our struggles with others, we find that we are not alone in this dark and broken world and we are able to build emotionally healthy relationships.

-Our ability to admit our imperfections makes us more compassionate and empathetic individuals. When others take notice of our vulnerability, they will more than likely see us as a safe person, a person that will listen well and empathize. Our vulnerability is contagious and will hopefully encourage others to do the same.

-No matter how dark our past may have been, the people who are meant to be in our life will love us despite our broken pieces. The love they show us will be an extension of Jesus’ love, freely given in spite of knowing about our deepest pain and struggles.

When I feel that I can’t muster up enough courage to share about my struggles and past with others, I simply pray that the Lord will speak through me and also remind myself of this quote by Oswald Chambers, “If you are going to be used by God, he will take you through a multitude of experiences that are not meant for you at all. They are meant to make you useful in his hands.”

The Lord calls us to repent and turn with the entirety of our hearts in the complete opposite direction. I pray that we can acknowledge our vast need for the Lord, remembering that he is ready to forgive and mend our broken pieces with His grace. I pray that you we can continue to find the beauty in our redemption stories and struggles and that we can use the experiences that the Lord pulls us through to connect with others.

Will you pray those same prayers with me?  Will you find the courage to strip yourself bare and stand without a disguise before the Lord who created us and before His people?

About the author: 

Savannah is a 20 year old living in his overflow of mercy and grace. She is enthralled by people and adventures. You will most likely find her seeking joy in the smallest of things, jumping in the car for spontaneous road trips, sitting in a quiet and still room alone with a notebook and pen in hand or eating macaroons with a cup of joe in hand. Her dream job? To be a story-teller. To share stories of redemption and to advance the gospel and further His kingdom through beautiful arrays of anointed words. 

I am a twenty-year-old who is living in His overflow of mercy and grace. I am enthralled by people and adventures. I have a soft spot for breakfast cafes, handwritten letters, vinyl and macaroons. Whimsy and wonder are two themes interwoven throughout my daily life and I approach each new day with a sense of giddiness, fully aware that the Lord is going to show up in big and evident ways. Spontaneously jumping in a car for a road trip, purchasing concert tickets one night in advance or waking up at the break of dawn to go hiking before class are things I am quite notorious for. My dream job? To be a story-teller. To share stories of redemption and to advance the Gospel and further His Kingdom through beautiful arrays of anointed words.
Liked this post? Share it!